Coming home

Now that she's back in the atmosphere 

With drops of Jupiter in her hair...

She acts like summer and walks like rain 

Reminds me that there's time a to change...

Tell me, did you sail across the sun...

Tell me, did you fall from a shooting star...

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet...

Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day 

And head back to the milky way 

And tell me, did Venus blow your mind 

Was it everything you wanted to find 

And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there... 

It is past midnight and so I can say that today my beautiful, both inside and out, big sister is  returning after a year and a half in South Korea!! We are so excited, and what makes it even more special is that it is a surprise - my parent's don't know!! I cannot wait to have her back with us - we have missed her so very, very much. Thinking of her constantly and praying that the hours will pass swiftly until she is safely home. 

Longing for Eternity.

"The tension is here,

between who you are

and who you could be,

between how it is

and how it should be."

And how it WILL be.

Salvation is here.

"Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here."

 {Dare you to move - Switchfoot}

Bed please.

"I want to change the world, instead, I sleep."

{Breathing - Ingrid Michaelson} 

And sleep I shall! Goodnight*

dance it out

Waiting under dark clouds for the rain, 

hoping lightning strikes a change,

As history gets lost, 

and as I took my final breath I felt alive

Meeting God to stand in line, not alone.

Nowhere to go, 

I'm not leaving, I'm not going,

I'm not kissing you goodbye.  

 {Lyrics - The Used} 

Sometimes all I have to do is dance it out of my system... the pain, confusion, frustration, anger, shame, stubborness, disappointment. After a day that seems to have dragged on forever, one that has been quite miserable, of my own selfish doing, dancing is what I needed to do.

Dancing so hard that you can barely hear the music over your rasping breath and cannot feel your bruising feet any longer. And when your heart finally begins to slow, when your breathing quietens, when the song comes to and end and the sweat drips off your face... you realise that everything is going to be alright. 

{Oh yes! I have just seen the dancing poster for our upcoming show... it is magnificent! As soon as they are printed I will post it!}

Star of the Morning

Hours away from writing my final exam but I have this song playing through my mind...  

Beautiful Saviour
Wonderful Counsellor
clothed in majesty
Lord of history
You're the Way
the Truth
the Life 

Star of the Morning
glorious in holiness
You're the Risen One
Heaven's champion
and You reign
You reign
over all.

Comfort. Hope. Perspective. Goodnight* 

a moment's reflection

You are the hole in my head 

You are the space in my bed 

You are the silence in between 

What I thought and what I said 

You are the night-time fear 

You are the morning when it's clear... 

You're my head 

You're my heart

 {Florence + The Machine}

I often find myself reflecting on how blessed I am. Truly blessed. Often one gets so caught up in life, the everyday rushings, the swirling of time around us. It does not stop, it waits for no one. And we run and we run to just try and keep up. That is when we must stop, when we must wait, for just a moment, and reflect. The now is not what is really important, it is the future, the eternal future. Perspective.

Looking up from underneath 

Fractured moonlight light on the sea, 

Reflections still look the same to me, 

As before I went under 

And it's peaceful in the deep, 

Cause either way you cannot breathe, 

No need to pray, no need to say 

Now I am under 

And it's breaking over me, 

A thousand miles down to the sea bed, 

I found the place to rest my head. 

And the arms of the ocean are carrying me, 

And all this devotion was rushing over me, 

And the question of heaven, 

for a sinner like me, 

But the arms of the ocean deliver me. 

Never let me go, never let me go...

{Florence + The Machine} 

I am incredibly grateful to have the people that I have surrounding me, supporting me, loving me. I do not want to take them for granted, I want to appreciate them, treasure them, cherish them - like they do for me. It is difficult not to become overwhelmed with it all - especially with the insanity of varsity having started up again - and to forget how blessed I really am. Now, in this very moment, and even better, in my eternal future.

A thousand years*

My favourite song of the day (edited):  

Heart beats fast 

Colours and promises 

How to be brave 

How can I love when 

I'm afraid to fall 

But watching you stand alone 

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow 

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid

I have loved you

For a thousand years 

I'll love you for a thousand more 

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is 

I will be brave 

I will not let anything take away 

What's standing in front of me 

Every breath 

Every hour has come to this 

 One step closer 

And all along I believed I would find you 

Time has brought your heart to me 

I have loved you for a thousand years 

I'll love you for a thousand more

{Christina Perri - A thousand years}